心情日记

最近不是很开心.....
原以为他们回来后，我的心情会更加的好...
但....certain unexpected things happened in suddenly...and it's really confused me.
Is myself over sensitive and panic or....the problem is really existing?
hence should i take it seriously? why those problems always come to me???
Perhaps i'm still not careful enough, and over release myself at sometimes. I'm not alert enough.

I knw i shouldn't think too much, and just do my job well. Other things are not in my concern area. 
Yes, i should behave like this.
This is what i need to do now.

Sometimes is hard to maintain the relationship between people especially in office department.

Saturday

Today is Saturday.
Saturday, it's supposed to be a good day. But, i'm working on saturday as well...haha
I was having my lunch alone....the feeling was so strange.
But any way, i have to adapt it.

Had a great dinner session with my parents in last night.
They keep on asking me about my career, daily routine.
While i felt so surprised to my mum's replied...
"You are so different with previous, the way you talk and think are totally like an adult. My daughter, you are still young, don't give yourselves too much stress. You should enjoy your teenage life."
And this is the way i responded, " I'm not a little girl any more, I've been wasted so much time. And now i wanted to build up my career within these few years. This is what i want for, and not entertainment and branded life."

Yes, this is me. I have to be different with last time as I'm bearing a huge responsible and i can't disappoint people who look me up.
I have to be tough even sometimes I really feel like frustrate, have to refresh my self when I feel unbalance. The importance, i have to improve my patient and EQ.

Actually, i was thinking what is the point for us to blogging? show off? sharing?
Nope. For me, I used to release my feeling through blogging. And all these articles are my memories. It's a proof for my growths.

I'm snaking for writing blog during office hour. haha...
Feel better after typed out my feeling.

Come back to my work again.

What a working life

It's 8 o'clock evening, yet I'm still sitting on my office chair and facing my computer screen... 

While my hand never stop for typing the alphabets from keyboard since this morning....

Yes, i'm alone in the office....

The office is so silent, i could hear my breathe....

Yet, i'm enjoying this type of busy life.

My dearest colleagues and madam went to Australia....miss them so much. 

Especially my grandpa Hong Leong, even though sometimes i feel his voice is so annoying....yet how i wish i could hear his sound at this moment.

The days alone

My boss and colleagues are went to Australia for vacation, and i have to be alone in these 8 days. What a boring moment, i'm feel damn lonely especially when comes to the meal session. haiz....

In these few days, i'm trying to control my emotional. I tried to cool down myself when i get mad, tried to keep my emotional nicely, tried to cheer up myself when i feel stressful. This is what we called EQ. Yes, undenieable my EQ is not that high, and i always show my emotions through face expressions and languages.

I have to improve myself, have to be more patient, and adaptable.

But it's also has an exception in sometimes, really can't understand why those people are so irresponsible. How can they always broke their promise and so unprofessional. People should always meet their client's dateline no matter in what situation, unless you are lying on the hospital's bed. Or else you have no any excuse to delay your works without a good explanation. Is it so difficult for you to complete the work within a long period of timeline? I'm feel so embarrance for failure to meet client's timeline. Then? How about you? Perhaps you might have some personal issues to affect your working performance. Yet, is that my problem? You have to solve it by yourself right? and dont bring it to your work. I'm feel so disappointed to your performance even thought i'm not the person who paying you. speechless

Yes, this is me, straight forward and low of EQ. I would feel good after released all the unsatisfied through blogging. But, i knew i have to improve my weaknesses in order to achieve a higher level of management skill.

What i want to say? I'm looking for the long term plan.

It's my feeling

What i can say?
It's hurt when you face certain unexpected attacks...It's seems like your effort and ability
are doubt by other people.
Yet, i can do nothing to prevent all this issues.
Anyway, shut up is better than voice up.

It's hard to describe my feeling with few sentences and words.
What's the reason to make me feel unhappy now?
I have too high expectation towards myself and unfortunately I'm not worth for?
Perhaps you guys do have other reasons...and all these arrangements are just to stable my ability and maturity.
Hopefully this is the truth.

But, it's really hurt man!
Even the stupid joker's advantage is better than me? haha...what a funny joke...
Heart broken.

But ,do you think i will give up?
NO WAY!